It was 23 years ago, today, that we became a family. It didn’t happen in a hospital, nor was it probably the way you used to imagine it would when you were younger, but it happened, and I am always so, so happy it did.
I don’t tell you this enough, but you are my biggest role model. Literally everything that has ever happened in my life is because of you. Throughout the years, I’ve seen the joy you’ve brought to all your student’s faces and how it’s simply in your nature to nurture everyone who comes through your life. I know that we have our moments where all we do is argue with each other, but at the end of the day, I find myself wishing that I could have somehow known you before I was born, just so we could have become best friends even sooner.
Aside from the obvious reasons, the holiday season is always so exciting and special. For my first Christmas ever, God (and Santa, can’t forget him) gave me you, my Christmas Miracle.
And to the mom I’ve never met,
I don’t know anything about you, but during the holiday season, I sometimes wonder where you are, what you’re doing, and if you’re ok.
I don’t know why you gave me up, I don’t know if your knees crack every time you bend down, just like mine do, if we have the same nose, or if you’re even alive. All I know is that your decision, regardless of if it was selfless or selfish, continues to give me the opportunity to live my best life.
I have an amazing family, the most loyal friends in the world, and a very special guy who manages to make me laugh even when I’m hangry. Literally everything that has ever happened in my life is because of you. I sometimes lose myself in daydreams of me traveling back to China and being able to meet you, somehow. It plays kind of like that scene in the Joy Luck Club, and we’d develop a great friendship like William and Randall did in This Is Us. Realistically, that would probably never happen, which is why I’m including you in this letter. I know you’ll most likely never read it, or even know it exists, but while writing this, I feel like my words are somehow getting through to you.
So thank you for what you did. Even if it meant closing a door to us, it opened another to a life I am always so grateful for.
Happy holidays to you both. You’ve given me the greatest gift of all – a life filled with love and happiness.
Your daughter, Julia